- feeling so much wonder as my baby begins to be interested in so many new things (no, this photo isn’t staged!)
- looking at her face and seeing the face of a “big” baby rather than a newborn
- still not really believing that I am the mother of three children!
- loving the (continued, ever-present) sisterly love
- having ups and downs – as a mama, as a wife, as a person of my own
- feeling already tired of the brief amount of summer that we’ve had, looking forward to autumn
- happy to have spent a fun night out sewing with some friends (and Fiona, too) last week
- surprised by the way that sewing has become the theme of the week — my focus seems to have shifted in that direction again lately
- looking forward to spending the 4th of July with some friends, knowing what a treat a few simple fountain fireworks are to my children
- laughing at her hat-off, incorrigible, punk-rock hair (yes, it naturally has blond tips and yes, it naturally stands up like that)
- wanting to crystallize every moment with her, knowing that the most I can do is hold them in my heart, forever
- turning my attention away from the half-finished baby sweater and instead sewing like mad — so many dresses for so many little girls!
- so delightfully in love with this baby
- realizing, just recently, that I can handle three children in public, all by myself — and it doesn’t have to be a disaster!
- feeling introverted lately
- feeling a little foolish for congratulating myself on a good parenting day when the very next one is guilt-inducing
- letting the house go so I can be creative, and it feels so good — like an indulgence
- surprised that six months have already gone by since we began this project — looking forward to seeing what happens during six months more
- four months old today!
- thinking that she looks surprisingly big — and surprisingly small, too
- feeling tired lately; spinning my wheels a bit
- admiring her impossibly long lashes
- thinking she must be having a little growth spurt- lots and lots of time spent nursing
- marveling at how quickly it all goes, and realizing that my other two girls are still so very little
- so amazed by Fiona’s new skill: rolling!
- not quite as excited about her other new skill: thumb sucking
- feverishly knitting — so many projects to complete in just a few short months!
- loving that she is getting old enough to have favorite things
- like being underneath her favorite tree in the backyard — the best mobile
- and watching the fire that it’s still cool enough to have at night
- still marveling at the silkiness of her skin
- staying up too late, even though I know better
- laughing about how talkative all three of my children are lately
- watching her admire her big sisters, already
- thinking about father’s day and what an amazing father my husband is to his gaggle of girls
- wondering how she manages to be so adorably chubby when she seems to spit up most of what she gulps down
- loving all of Fiona’s belly laughs lately
- feeling excited about our freshly painted living room and dining room
- looking forward to a visit from my youngest sister later this week
- “even baby worms need their little mama, don’t they, Mama?”
- all of us under the spell of our talkative, engaging baby
- bringing more mama-made rhythm to our days as the littlest one finds her own rhythm
- thinking profound thoughts
- knitting for me!
- learning, a little bit more each day, how to stop rushing through things with my children, and to stop rushing them
- loving how much she’s loving her baths
- taking more time away from the computer and the ever-addictive iPhone, spending more time hugging and holding and kissing and just being with all three of my babies
- wondering if I’ll ever learn to be proud of my body; she’s done so much for me
- so many more reasons to love pink every day!
- still feeling awe at her tinyness
- getting to know her personality as she “talks” to us more and more
- watching her try to figure out her thumb
- amazed by the intensity of her gaze, thinking that those eyes are going to stay blue
- so glad that she loves hearing us sing to her
- realizing again what fun it is to have a baby girl (knowing that I would have loved a boy, too, but basking in the girliness)
- crossing my fingers and holding my breath that we may be finding our way into a new rhythm
- wanting to gobble up my chunky, happy baby
- getting ready to welcome my inlaws into our home so they can meet their littlest grandchild for the first time
- feeling strong and full of energy, like a better (new) version of myself
- still marveling that I am the mother of three !!! children